It is true that life is strange, t ll change and sometimes, unfortunately, even when you least expect it, it does not happen when you need something like that ... Even the estimate that you can have for someone is subject to change: Just a minute! Nicola can do any one or a Franco, a Mario ... does not take much when it is superficial to lord it.
I know that anger reflected by my words, but not about this, it is rather disappointing, the disappointment of having committed errors; disappointment really! The one with the capital.
Nothing is fine for now, from my father's illness to major economic problems in recent months are putting me up against the wall. There is no curse! I'm lonely and I'm not going to feel this way ...
And I decided that I no longer wanted to go to England ...
For love I told myself that I do is for love. (What a wanker!) But for the sake of whom? What?
For the first time in my life I decided to seriously make me a family and, now, what have I got? I can do is nothing. No curse, no!
pisses me off the weakness with which I dealt with all these situations! Pisses me off to treat myself that way because of who I thought loved me: I do not think they'll never forget those forty-five seconds of that last damn and damn phone ... But above all, what makes me most angry is myself drained all the bottles instead of reacting differently, alcohol did nothing that make me weak and this is not the way to react to things. No it is!
little while ago, passing near a traffic light I saw a foreign girl with a baby, begging. Although his face was marked by suffering, I think he should have no more than twenty-five years. While the machine off - including me - I noticed that the girl was giving a kiss to the baby in her arms. Well, what can I say? Call me soft or sentimental, but at that moment, a smile ran away from me: is it really true that even in the darkest moments, love always comes to our rescue. Even when things go wrong and you think you do not do it, when you've hit bottom ... is at that moment that begins the ascent. And that goes for me, for you, for all.
I sometimes get lost, and in my life I have often, but I always found the solution, I have always managed to "get away" - if you let me spend the expression - well, I will succeed this time too! Even if love has turned its back, even if I have committed errors of assessment ...
two months working in a real estate agent, I have not yet reaped the fruits of my work but, who directs me, says I'm doing well. I think so and I think that if we continue like this, sooner or later this bad when (not if it is random I call time) I will overcome it. I will overcome it as I always have, as always will!
time ago I reinstalled the video "... And then you smile." I propose again to those who wish to see it. I'm not looking at him for a while and even though it may seem strange, I must admit that seeing him, I immediately felt a little 'less sad.
What can I say? Just a minute! Moreover, it does not take much when the depth to lord it ...
Today is 24/10/2009. Today for me is a very important day. Today, after so long, I take a pen, who knows, perhaps the worse is about to end ...
